To sum up your most fears is to open wide your venerability. Lay open your heart, your soul if you believe you have one and tell someone what the entire world can use against you. Sometime we set ourselves up in a way to take a fall just to get out of facing something we know we cannot do. I don’t believe people are lazy I believe they are afraid to try. Afraid of failure on such a high level that they just take the name of lazy to hide behind it.
A bully is also afraid. Afraid to face the fact that they aren’t a good person that they can overpower you with fear and it is fear in them that make them the bully. . I like to put to the test my ability to defuse problems. I analyze things until I feel I have found the underlying cause of no farther to dig no more answers. I think that is called obsessive compulsive. I call it Anal-sizing.
If you cannot physically do something because you have no limbs for said something. You try to find away to do it anyway. Those of us that have those limbs try to find a way around not doing it at all. Goes along with the girl that has straight hair wants to have the curly hair. I Drove long haul with my husband for a few years the only way we would be able to go traveling was if we trucked. The stupid things we hauled Oranges from Florida to California and Oranges from California to Florida. Now that was stupid be happy with your oranges and stop wasting the diesel. However, that is how we do things. Work around not through. Cover up not solve. Frustrating to say the least. I hate taking medicine I want to find the problem cut it out. kill it or beat it naturally. Old age is something else that is frustrating. I do not want to grow old. Nevertheless, my body is having a difficult time staying in its earlier state. I haven’t tortured my body did not fill it with alcohol or drugs, nicotine and yet it is quitting me. I always say life’s uncertain eat dessert first, so why do I eat the mashed potatoes and gravy. I guess I am one contradiction after another. However, I am still an individual! I am not a bully not lazy, not a liar. Not a glory hog. And I will be dammed if I am going to tell anyone what I really fear, I am not a bigot, I am willing to hear your views just don’t expect me to adhere to them if they aren’t mine. I am not a racist I deal with whatever color creed religion etc you are if you do not tread on me I will not do like wise. I am not a loner when I want to be a lone I will tell you leave me alone. I am a hard worker if I believe in what I am working for. No pay no privilege just a belief, and I am honest. I do fight not flyaway. When really scarred of some thing I will land with both feet teeth and every breath in the middle of it. I am me.
Take it or leave it………

Never to old to dream big

As many times as I would like to blog about my adventures my follies, I refrain. I read other blogs and think I should write these feeling down. However, who would care. Now I don’t mean for that to sound depressed. I am not depressed only bored at a time in my life when being retired should be a blessing. I am not aging well. I do not feel nor do I want to act like a senior citizen. Unless of course it is on the day, I go to the thrift stores in Eugene. They have great bargains, of which I need nothing. Nevertheless, I am always proud to say oh yes and I am over fifty-five. (Well over).
My good friend and Author (and I) want to start women’s retreats this summer at an old Hippie village near her residents. I am all for it
However, I feel there is so much more to be had at this particular place and if all goes well I want to pursue some leads I have for a rejuvenated summer camp. The place is in total disarray. However, with my enthusiasm and her accountant abilities, perhaps we can find some people old and young to help revive the old place. It is run by a corporation and we are going to try to rent it for the summer. If I can keep myself my dog, my motor home and perhaps even my husband if he will leave our own farm, for any length of time. I would love to restore the many faceted camp. Wish me luck I am perhaps not only a random old woman but an unrealistic one as well. But hey why not? Life is short Eat dessert first, I always say.

Where did they go from here?

Do you ever wonder about people from your past?
Wonder if they are still alive or where they went after your relationship was over and you or they had moved on?
I often do an online search for those that have touched my life in a way that I had never forgot.
Weather it had been personal or business. Whether it had been a good experience or a bad one.
I like to catch up, see if they have had happier times or been thrown aside for the things they had done.
So many people cross our paths but do we stop and wonder why?
Were we to have learned from them or they from us?
Where do people go how much did they mature?
Now that I am one of the elders I asked my self What if?…
What if I had gone through some of the things I had backed out of business deals, trips, marriages.
Where would I be now would I be satisfied with how my life had turned out?
Sometimes I will get a shiver just thinking about things that I managed to survive. Most of which I would have been held responsible for in this day of age. However getting away with nonsensical things that young teens do now. Don’t compare to the simplest of my youthful years. Because of media and instant communications, You don’t get many do-overs.
I think I will just be happy that things turned out as well as they did and simply say I am Blessed.

The Reality of writing

Writing is what I do.
Interesting and factual is a necessity for me to make my stories very real. Weapons, Tactical correctness
Learning from true Law enforcement, Military, etc. is important.
I thank each one of you who help me make my Books the real thing. . My chacreters portray real people who have real jobs They need real traits, I get those from several sites that I enjoy. You all know who yuo are. Thanks.

Friends.

On all the social sites I visit I realized the variety of friends I have. Sport friends, Cooking friends, Hiking/Camping  friends, Author friends, Want to be Author friends, Militia friends, NRA friends, Vegan friends, Foreign friends. Missionary friends and a couple Agnostic and Atheist friends.
There is no animosity, no political feelings for these friends.
No limits on what they wear, what they think, say or do.
I don’t care what the eat or don’t eat. Who they are related to or what their mission in life is. They for some reason just are:
Somewhere we connected in some little facet of my personality we joined the same group and became Cyber friends.
So tell me why do we have wars? Why do we dislike others that look or seem different? Why can’t we all just leave each other to our own personal lives and..... Be Friends?

How many ways to skin a cat. or smuggle drugs

Given the fact that the population of the United States is the largest user of illegal drugs in the world, with one in six citizens claiming to have used cocaine.
The UNODC, United Nations Office on Drugs/Crime, reviewed the efficiency of the actions taken by the Colombian government for over twenty some years. The US needs to take some responsibility and reduce the demand for cocaine. Colombia is one of the largest recipients Under something called, Plan Columbia. U.S. foreign aid has given almost $5 billion over a period of years. Yet these funds have primarily funded eradication and interdiction, as opposed to economic development or regional security narco-traffickers coupled with narco-terrorists, make homemade submarines that can carry four people and over eight tons of cargo. (Cocaine) They are painted so you can’t even see them in the ocean. What is that old cliché “Where there is a will there is a way”? I am at present writing a fiction story about just this sort of thing, some of my facts here are already behind times. I love researching. And of course My books all have happy endings. Lol. www.jKathleen love-author.com

Keeping it real

I like to research everything . So that my stories are not only up to date but the reader can see the cartridges flipping to the right of the Simi automatic, things like that. But not over kill with colors lengths of gowns and what kind of flowered embroidery is on the neckline. If it is low cut or looks like a school teacher, the avid reader gets the drift. However, when it come to the bedroom…. Hey we all know good sex, (well we should) and the imagination can handle the details. Keeps your characters above reproach, unlike politicians...lol. Some stories require a little erotic flair but keep it to a minimum. So that your reader can fantasize a little in their own scenes. Twists and turns are great and unexpected stuff, is what keeps them turning the pages.

Just a thought.

Chief was asked by a white government official, You have observed the white hi-tech progress. 'Judging all this, where did whitey go wrong?'
Chief replied. 'When white man find land, Indians running it no taxes no debt plenty buffalo plenty beaver clean water. Medicine man free. Indian spend all day hunting fishing; all night having sex.' Then the chief leaned back and smiled. 'Only white man dumb enough to think he could improve system like that.' Got-ta Love my Indians..
You figure a Government big enough to give you everything, is big enough to take away everything you have.